am I too dirty, am I too flirty?

I found some great dance it out music. :)

dancing around on the kitchen floor in my socks. That's right. :)

Grace Kelly - Mika

will it be that joke that I told, and told 'til it got old?

If you live somewhere where it doesn't snow, count your fucking lucky stars. I had to work until a little after six last night, and set out in the snow storm to try and drive home for Christmas. The six-lane expressway that I have to take was absolutely terrible. I couldn't tell which lane that I was actually in, I went about twenty miles an hour, and somehow managed to slide twice. The second time I tried to correct, over corrected, and nearly slid into a car next to me. I thought I was going to have a heart attack. My heart was beating out of my chest, my hands were shaking, and it took everything that I had not to cry.

I drove for over an hour, driving twenty miles an hour, and made it to a pizza place on the main road. I called my mom and she had to come pick me up, because I was a nervous wreck and I knew that I had reached my limit.

It is TERRIFYING driving in snow like that. Shit.

My mom picked me up in my dad's truck, which has four wheel drive, and we made it to my aunt's for Christmas Eve dinner. I downed half a bottle of sangria before I could finally chill enough to even think about anything else.

Fuck. I hate goddamn snow.

So today I slept until two in the afternoon, ate a lot of food, drank nearly an entire bottle of wine by myself, and watched the rest of season one of Battlestar Galactica (which I'm in love with now, by the way). I have to go in tomorrow to work from 3-10 to deal with douche bags who can't stay home for a couple of days after Christmas. I fucking hate the holidays.

:)

Not the Sun - Brand New

I wanna dream away with you tonight...

I'm in some serious need of a vacation. I realized today that I've been nonstop working since I got my tonsils out in March. Yeah. Which is probably while I'm so angry with my job and why I really, really hate people lately.

I would like to take a trip, especially to NYC. I guess we'll see when Christmas is fucking over and I get all of my bills caught up.

Everyone loved their presents today. We had a little Christmas thing over at Matty's and Haley and James and Matty all got to open their presents. I'm really satisfied. My presents from them were:

Underwear - Haley (that's what I told her I wanted :))
Terminator: Sarah Conner Chronicles season 1 & 2 from Matty and James. I have never seen this show before, but I've been wanting to. :)

Tomorrow I'll probably get some crap thing that I don't want from my mom's side of the family, and money from my parents and aunt. That's all I really want, it can help pay my bills...

So I really hate my job. Last night I worked until around 11:15 at Food Ave, then I had to be back in the morning at 10. I didn't even get to bed until two in the morning, and I took a muscle relaxer 'cause my back was killing me. My alarm went off at 8:30 and I said "fuck no" and snoozed for an hour. I was about forty-five minutes late, and I forgot to care. So there.

Tomorrow I'm working from 12-6, then Christmas Eve at my aunt's. Probably won't do anything Christmas day, besides sleep...

Reasons to Love You - Meiko

I've learned to live half alive

We had freezing rain last night, so I had to call into work the past two days. Which really sucks, because I was only scheduled like twenty hours to begin with this week. So I ended up working like.. seven hours this entire week. Suck.

Whatever. Tomorrow's Amanda and Matty dad and we're going to do some writing. It's gonna be lovely. We're both really excited and can't wait.

I went out to dinner with Justin tonight. We ate at O'Charley's where the rolls kind of sucked, which was disappointing 'cause that's my favorite thing there. That... and the potato soup. I paid, because I'm not that old fashioned and Justin buys me dinner all of the time. I was also so glad to not be eating chili for the third consecutive day that anything would've been good.

I just bought Matty's Christmas present online and I'm really freaking excited for it. I got him Halloweentown 1 & 2 in a combo pack, and I also got him Hocus Pocus - which are two of his favorite movies. So yay. I'm awesome. I can't wait until he opens it, 'cause I love making my friends happy and he has absolutely no idea what he's getting. :)

I also got Haley Repo! The Genetic Opera, since I showed her the movie and she absolutely loved it. James got the Glee Christmas album, mom got some new house shoes since she's been complaining that the ones that I bought her four years ago were stolen by my sister, my father got a pajama set (which he wants every year), my uncle also got a pajama set, my aunt gets her usual cherry blossom body wash, my sister gets a heart necklace, and I think I'm going to get Floyd a ball since he's lost his other ones. Floyd is a dog, by the way. ;)

I kind of hate the holidays, but I really love making my friends happy, so hurray!

I'm just hoping for some money for gas and groceries this year. :)

Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

don't move so slow

It snowed today. A lot.

I fucking hate snow. I was at my aunt's when the roads got really bad and had to drive home in snow showers with strong gusts of winds. It was so stressful and there ended up being a wreck and road block and I had to just sit in my car for like, half an hour until the road block cleared. Because people are stupid and drive too fast in snow.

I have a Wii. I love it very much. I got the special edition red one and it came with a free Super Mario game which is so much fun, especially when you play with other players. I also have a Wii Fit now, which is lovely. There are new games on it since I played a couple of years ago, and a friend of mine and I played that obstacle course hardcore. It was so much fun. We ended up wearing ourself out and laid on my bed and watched a couple of episodes of Chuck.

Fun.

Just to let you know, Dragonberry rum is so yummy. I put a splash in my orange soda earlier and it was very tasty.

I watched the first disc of Battlestar Galactica (sp?) today. I thought it was going to be in episodes, but apparently it started out as a mini series so it was like, three hours. It was pretty good though.

I'm also watching Desperate Housewives right now, which I'm really digging. I hear that it starts to go down hill after season two, but for now I plan on enjoying the first season and all it has to offer.

so the guy that I've been having sex with regular? Justin. This past week we hooked up a few times at my parent's house, which I imagined would be very awkward but it was actually a lot of fun. And hot. Shitt... I enjoy making sex with that man.

He's a bit older than me, by the way. I don't really care, I'm not going to marry him or anything. He's eleven years older than me and has an eight year old son, and I surprisingly didn't find that creepy or weird at all. His son lives with his mother and stays with Justin on the weekends. I've met him. Not introduced as his fuck buddy or anything, but sometimes he comes to see me at work and has brought his son along for an icee. He's a sweet boy. Remembered me the next time he came to Target, Justin told me he asked if they could go see if I was there. Cute, huh?

So work's going okay, except the holidays tend to make me feel like a realy Scrooge 'cause I fucking hate Christmas. I used to like Christmas. A lot. Then I worked in retail and... yeah.

That's basically it. Paying on student debt, working, playing wii, and sexing it up. It's a pretty sweet life right now. Not great, just... comfortable.

So with my whole haven't been writing lately thing? That should change soon, because Matty and I have both asked off the same day and have planned a day of junk food and locking ourselves in my room to brainstorm and write. Maybe I'll post an excerpt of some sort. I always write better when I've got someone to bounce off ideas with.

H'okay, goodnight.

I Can't Take It - Tegan and Sara

I'll remember someday

Dear blog,

I'm sorry that you've been so seriously neglected.

Life has been hectic. I spend a large chunk of my time driving, because living at my parents means living out in the middle of nowhere. Who's spending a fortune on gas? This girl.

They've trained me at the service desk at Target. Oh, horror. People. So many fucking people. Keep your goddamn receipt, okay?

I didn't get the promotion that I so clearly deserved. That's fine, I'm going to go back to school next semester so fuck you very much.

I'm kind of seeing a guy. I met him at Target when he fixed my printer. I then served him a weiner and he served me his number. 'Cause I'm hot. Like whoa.

Anyway, we have sex semi-regular. Yay for me.

Haven't spoken to B in over two months. Not since she came up with some lame excuse to ditch me on my Birthday last minute. I spent it alone with a bottle of rum.

I'm friends with Matty again. Which has been pretty nice. He had to send me like, four text messages until I finally caved in and talked to him. Things going well there.

I hate living at my parents, but at least I don't have to worry about too many bills. I'm also paying on my student loans and shit. It's like, a hundred bucks a month but I'd like to eventually make it more.

Well, that's all. Goodnight.

Gimme Sympathy - Metric