as pretty as a picture hangin' from a fixture

Ah, Christmas. Spending time with family members who don't really like you. Fun.

Bought myself a CD on Amazon, Lenka's newish CD "Two."

I'm a little sick. Sore throat, stopped up nose, slight fever... all of that fun stuff. I spent the day watching A Christmas Story and then Despicable Me and then it was nap time. Woke up, had some leftover turkey and initiated a Grey's Anatomy marathon (ssn 3).

I have to be up at six thirty tomorrow, so bed isn't far away again.

I'm in need of a vacation. Blah.

Everything at Once - Lenka

you can be better all by yourself

This was an exhausting last few months.

Let's see, I'm not in the mood to write it all out especially with a couple of xanex's in my system so I'll just give a bit of an update.

School's out. I failed every class because I stopped going. My doctor thinks that I'm depressed because I have had a lot anxiety (especially when driving), I don't want to get out of bed in the morning, and I have no energy to face the day anymore. Therapy next week.

Black Friday was a fucking nightmare. I had to work at the Starbucks in Target from 11:40 pm until 10:20 am. Yeah. I wanted to kill myself. I came home, took two painkillers, and passed the fuck out. When I woke up, my mom had to bring me dinner in bed because I was so fucking sore that I couldn't force myself to get out of bed.

That's actually when the depressing shit started.

I met this guy. We met in mid-October and we've hung out a few times at his place. He's not from here, so he's already much cooler than the other guys that I've shagged over the years. Here's a little (maybe huge) bonus, though. He's fucking hot. We met online and when we met in person, not that I have low self-esteem anymore, but I was just like "shit he's too pretty for me." I was afraid to touch him and he made the first mood.

I don't really see us having a future, but it's way too early to be so pessimistic. Neither of us know exactly what we're looking for, so it's fine for now. He watched Buffy with me, having had no experience with the show. We watched the cheesey 90's pilot episode and enjoyed it. I hope that Buffy evenings continue, because that's all I want. I even told him, for the longest time I've just wanted someone to watch Buffy with and have sex with and he said "I'd like to be that guy." So yay.

Swimming laps at the Y, but their pool schedule is super inconvenient so I might be looking into Bob's Gym, which is 24 hrs and only ten bucks more a month. We'll see. :)

My job is stressful. The woman that I got the job over hates me and wants to get me into trouble, but I don't give a fuck about her. She's just bitter and has a sad, sad life.

My two gay friends have been terrible to me lately and I'm thinking that it's probably going to have to end for a while. Whatever, I deserve better.

Making several friends at work, so that's happy.

Okay, goodnight. <3

Don't Kick the Chair - Dia Frampton

it's a blacked out blur but I'm pretty sure it ruled

Oh, this personal essay is kicking my ass. I probably shouldn't have written about something so... ahem, personal? But I have a ton to write about it, I just feel like I sound completely stupid writing it. Y'know? Yeah.

Got my flu shot! I felt like a brave little soldier sitting in the chair at work, waiting for the pharmacist to stick me. It wasn't bad and I even got a band-aid with a little target dog on it! I felt twelve. :)

Getting a gym membership. Bought a bathing suit online today, when it arrives I'll get my membership at the Y where I can work out after work a few nights a week. Yay for getting into shape!

Last Friday Night - Katy Perry

we we we we so excited

So this was seriously the best birthday that I've ever had. Why? Let me count the ways...

- Jell-o shots. Wow. Yeah, definitely making those more often. (Apparently everyone was like, "These are SO strong!" I had like ten of 'em, I liked them...)

- Lots of awesome friends gathering in one place in honor of, well, me!

- Drag queens. Okay.

- Rum and coke.

- Tom Collins.

-Other assorted free drinks.

- Lots of gay men. Everywhere.

- Designated driver. A definite must.

- A drag queen did "Friday" by Rebecca Black. Ahahahaha.

- Stuffed crust pizza.

- It wasn't over yet....

- Saturday night sex and drinks.

- Sunday lunch at Red Lobster.

- Not doing a damn thing all weekend.

Yep. Best birthday ever.

Now if I can only get my shit together and start doing my actual school work on time. This is hard. Especially when the internets isn't working at home. Blah.

No music, but I currently have Friday stuck in my head. Yeah, you love me. (Glee version is actually GOOD, incase you didn't know.)

Sad. I feel sad. For you, so sad. You'll be left alone and broken bleeding from the heart when he doesn't come home.

So the votes are in and your new photo lab "assistant" whatever person who's in charge of ze photo lab is...

drumroll, please...

patience, grasshopper!

..

..

Moi.

Yes. I got the promotion! Yay me and all of my awesomeness.

Justin took me out for a celebratory dinner. That was the first time I'd really hung out with him since probably February or April. We didn't do anything, so don't get any ideas. He bought me a burger at Applebees and it was yummy. I fucking deserve it.

Tomorrow is my golden Birthday, so we shall see how that goes. Wish me lots of drunk, happy times.

Sad - Eisley (possibly one of my new favorite songs)

now girls, you're both pretty.

I had my interview yesterday and it went extremely well. My answers were what they were looking for and I sounded confident.

Honestly, if I don't get the job, I'm going to be horribly surprised.

Just so you know, you cannot bring in copywritten photos into a photo lab and expect them to print them without a copyright release. You're just stupid. Not only that, but you shouldn't leave the photos when there's a technical glitch and expect the person who opens to do your entire order for you. Don't do a project on a photo kiosk that is going to take several hours right before closing - dumbass.

So I'm taking a worthless class that won't transfer that I seriously CANNOT stand, and it's too late to drop it. Grr.

Will find out about the job by next week. Wish me luck!

Watching Megamind.

she's so hot she's making me sexist... bitch

I'm probably going to have a total bitch fit if I don't get this fucking promotion. I fucking NEED it, you know? The other person doesn't need it, she just wants to be in charge of me.

I've been working on Notches. Not actually writing out scenes like I thought that I was supposed to be doing, but jotting down information about characters and their relationships to one another.

Dude, everything happens in season three! Okay, there is some crazy shit in ssn two, but ssn three is like "WHOA holy drama."

I can't wait. It's all that I want to talk about, but I have no one to talk about it TO. Blah.

I got a haircut! Finally. I haven't had one since... uhm... April? Yeah, I'm a nasty cunt. I'm a broke bitch, gimme a break!

I made a chicken, bacon, ranch spinach wrap for myself and it was FANTASTIC.

Watched Tangled, it was pretty good. Zachary Levi was the voice of the main dude, how bad could it possibly be? But now I have an overwhelming urge to rewatch the entire Chuck series, which would be a great mini adventure, but I have no time. ):

Awkward guys at school, awkward random running into people that I didn't like in high school.

Damn, can't I just go back to Columbia where no one knew me? Oh, and don't forget about the amazingness that was the classes there. Right? I mean, jesus. What class do you get to write really vulgar stories about gay sex and shit? That'd be fiction writing. :)

Boom - Flight of the Conchords