you electrify my life

So remember way back when I got this promotion and am now in charge of ze photo lab? Yeah, the woman that I was against is still being a bitter bitch. I'm over that.

A bunch of us are going to Applebee's tonight for 99 cent margaritas, which is promising to be awesome. I invited really hot guy that's been very, um, not responsive lately. He said that it sounds nice and sounded truly interested. We'll see if he follows through.

I went swimming the other night after passive aggressive woman at work got not so passive and yelled at me about a bunch of bullshit that is all in her head. Actively not thinking of that, I begin writing a scene in my head while I swam back and forth in my lane. Working on it now. (:

I love my friends. You know, the ones that don't suck. As for the ones that suck, yes, I love them, but do I need them?

Starlight - Muse

I'm about to lose control

Exercise bike for twenty minutes after work, it said that I burned 83 calories. (:

Today was weird. A customer told my supervisor that I was negative and rude. Sorry that I can't wave my magic wand and give you every thing that you want. I wish I had a magic wand that would get rid of that disgusting, heavy perfume that you wear. It's seriously so strong that I can't breathe next to you.

Here's the best part. When I offered to refund her photos, she said "Well what are you going to do with them?" And I said "I would damage them out and destroy them." "So you're not going to post them on facebook and say 'this was some crazy woman' or something?" ".... *take a moment to regain composure* ... That's unprofessional." Then she laughed and tried to give me a smack on the shoulder, saying that she was 'just kidding' but the smell from her had me standing so far back from the counter that she couldn't reach. Ahahahaha.

One person complaining about me isn't really going to hurt my feelings. Since, you know, most people think that I'm amazing. Which I am. (:

I'm in a Muse mood lately.

Hysteria - Muse

I just wanted to hold you in my arms...

Just swam laps and I feel amazing! I finally registered for Bob's Gym, which is better than the Y by like...a lot. I think that I've lost seven pounds, but I'm not sure! Either way, yay!

That's all. (:

Starlight - Muse

what kind of situation am in now?

I've been having an amazing time lately. I have these friends, they're not gay and they're females. It's pretty much amazing.

Today we met up for Olive Garden and then went back to Katelyn's for a movie. Which was Tucker and Dale vs Evil, which I've already seen twice, but I was like "yeah you guys have to watch this." So much love for this movie. I remember nearly two years ago when I found out about it, I couldn't fucking wait to see it. I was not disappointed.

We're planning on doing this kind of thing bi weekly. Hanging out, watching shows/movies, eating food. I have every other Tuesday off, Katelyn has every Tuesday off, and Jennifer always gets off by 4:30 so yay!

Last night I went to Applebee's with some people from work and it was a blast. We had 99 cent margaritas and half price appetizers. Our waiter was hilarious. Fun times.

Some things suck, but I'm focusing on the positive right now, so all is good in the world.

Roll With the Punches - Lenka

and they would try to make us forget ourselves

I came up for something new in Notches the other day. It was exciting, even if it was small. One benefit to having to drive forty minutes to work and then forty minutes home everyday - plenty of time to think.

So I got sicker as the week wore on since Christmas. I ended up going home early on Monday and then just calling in on Tuesday. It was horrible. I'm feeling better now, just draining all of this crap out of my system... which is pretty disgusting. I worked a Starbucks shift yesterday to make up for calling in and it had me fucking exhausted. I ended up going to bed at 10:30 last night. Yeah. I didn't stay up for New Years for the first time since I was a baby. And I'm really not sad about it.

I was invited to do things, but I'm just turning into an eighty year-old lady, so that ya go. I spent today doing laundry and watching Grey's. I seriously bawled, too. I can watch some of that shit a hundred times and I still lose it at certain parts. :'(

I'm sore all over. I'm pretty close to crawling in bed with some icy hot and just passing the fuck out. Tomorrow at work I think I'm going to bring a notebook in with me like I used to before the holiday madness and do some writing.

Goodnight!

Invasion- Eisley

as pretty as a picture hangin' from a fixture

Ah, Christmas. Spending time with family members who don't really like you. Fun.

Bought myself a CD on Amazon, Lenka's newish CD "Two."

I'm a little sick. Sore throat, stopped up nose, slight fever... all of that fun stuff. I spent the day watching A Christmas Story and then Despicable Me and then it was nap time. Woke up, had some leftover turkey and initiated a Grey's Anatomy marathon (ssn 3).

I have to be up at six thirty tomorrow, so bed isn't far away again.

I'm in need of a vacation. Blah.

Everything at Once - Lenka

you can be better all by yourself

This was an exhausting last few months.

Let's see, I'm not in the mood to write it all out especially with a couple of xanex's in my system so I'll just give a bit of an update.

School's out. I failed every class because I stopped going. My doctor thinks that I'm depressed because I have had a lot anxiety (especially when driving), I don't want to get out of bed in the morning, and I have no energy to face the day anymore. Therapy next week.

Black Friday was a fucking nightmare. I had to work at the Starbucks in Target from 11:40 pm until 10:20 am. Yeah. I wanted to kill myself. I came home, took two painkillers, and passed the fuck out. When I woke up, my mom had to bring me dinner in bed because I was so fucking sore that I couldn't force myself to get out of bed.

That's actually when the depressing shit started.

I met this guy. We met in mid-October and we've hung out a few times at his place. He's not from here, so he's already much cooler than the other guys that I've shagged over the years. Here's a little (maybe huge) bonus, though. He's fucking hot. We met online and when we met in person, not that I have low self-esteem anymore, but I was just like "shit he's too pretty for me." I was afraid to touch him and he made the first mood.

I don't really see us having a future, but it's way too early to be so pessimistic. Neither of us know exactly what we're looking for, so it's fine for now. He watched Buffy with me, having had no experience with the show. We watched the cheesey 90's pilot episode and enjoyed it. I hope that Buffy evenings continue, because that's all I want. I even told him, for the longest time I've just wanted someone to watch Buffy with and have sex with and he said "I'd like to be that guy." So yay.

Swimming laps at the Y, but their pool schedule is super inconvenient so I might be looking into Bob's Gym, which is 24 hrs and only ten bucks more a month. We'll see. :)

My job is stressful. The woman that I got the job over hates me and wants to get me into trouble, but I don't give a fuck about her. She's just bitter and has a sad, sad life.

My two gay friends have been terrible to me lately and I'm thinking that it's probably going to have to end for a while. Whatever, I deserve better.

Making several friends at work, so that's happy.

Okay, goodnight. <3

Don't Kick the Chair - Dia Frampton