I've learned to live half alive

We had freezing rain last night, so I had to call into work the past two days. Which really sucks, because I was only scheduled like twenty hours to begin with this week. So I ended up working like.. seven hours this entire week. Suck.

Whatever. Tomorrow's Amanda and Matty dad and we're going to do some writing. It's gonna be lovely. We're both really excited and can't wait.

I went out to dinner with Justin tonight. We ate at O'Charley's where the rolls kind of sucked, which was disappointing 'cause that's my favorite thing there. That... and the potato soup. I paid, because I'm not that old fashioned and Justin buys me dinner all of the time. I was also so glad to not be eating chili for the third consecutive day that anything would've been good.

I just bought Matty's Christmas present online and I'm really freaking excited for it. I got him Halloweentown 1 & 2 in a combo pack, and I also got him Hocus Pocus - which are two of his favorite movies. So yay. I'm awesome. I can't wait until he opens it, 'cause I love making my friends happy and he has absolutely no idea what he's getting. :)

I also got Haley Repo! The Genetic Opera, since I showed her the movie and she absolutely loved it. James got the Glee Christmas album, mom got some new house shoes since she's been complaining that the ones that I bought her four years ago were stolen by my sister, my father got a pajama set (which he wants every year), my uncle also got a pajama set, my aunt gets her usual cherry blossom body wash, my sister gets a heart necklace, and I think I'm going to get Floyd a ball since he's lost his other ones. Floyd is a dog, by the way. ;)

I kind of hate the holidays, but I really love making my friends happy, so hurray!

I'm just hoping for some money for gas and groceries this year. :)

Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

don't move so slow

It snowed today. A lot.

I fucking hate snow. I was at my aunt's when the roads got really bad and had to drive home in snow showers with strong gusts of winds. It was so stressful and there ended up being a wreck and road block and I had to just sit in my car for like, half an hour until the road block cleared. Because people are stupid and drive too fast in snow.

I have a Wii. I love it very much. I got the special edition red one and it came with a free Super Mario game which is so much fun, especially when you play with other players. I also have a Wii Fit now, which is lovely. There are new games on it since I played a couple of years ago, and a friend of mine and I played that obstacle course hardcore. It was so much fun. We ended up wearing ourself out and laid on my bed and watched a couple of episodes of Chuck.

Fun.

Just to let you know, Dragonberry rum is so yummy. I put a splash in my orange soda earlier and it was very tasty.

I watched the first disc of Battlestar Galactica (sp?) today. I thought it was going to be in episodes, but apparently it started out as a mini series so it was like, three hours. It was pretty good though.

I'm also watching Desperate Housewives right now, which I'm really digging. I hear that it starts to go down hill after season two, but for now I plan on enjoying the first season and all it has to offer.

so the guy that I've been having sex with regular? Justin. This past week we hooked up a few times at my parent's house, which I imagined would be very awkward but it was actually a lot of fun. And hot. Shitt... I enjoy making sex with that man.

He's a bit older than me, by the way. I don't really care, I'm not going to marry him or anything. He's eleven years older than me and has an eight year old son, and I surprisingly didn't find that creepy or weird at all. His son lives with his mother and stays with Justin on the weekends. I've met him. Not introduced as his fuck buddy or anything, but sometimes he comes to see me at work and has brought his son along for an icee. He's a sweet boy. Remembered me the next time he came to Target, Justin told me he asked if they could go see if I was there. Cute, huh?

So work's going okay, except the holidays tend to make me feel like a realy Scrooge 'cause I fucking hate Christmas. I used to like Christmas. A lot. Then I worked in retail and... yeah.

That's basically it. Paying on student debt, working, playing wii, and sexing it up. It's a pretty sweet life right now. Not great, just... comfortable.

So with my whole haven't been writing lately thing? That should change soon, because Matty and I have both asked off the same day and have planned a day of junk food and locking ourselves in my room to brainstorm and write. Maybe I'll post an excerpt of some sort. I always write better when I've got someone to bounce off ideas with.

H'okay, goodnight.

I Can't Take It - Tegan and Sara

I'll remember someday

Dear blog,

I'm sorry that you've been so seriously neglected.

Life has been hectic. I spend a large chunk of my time driving, because living at my parents means living out in the middle of nowhere. Who's spending a fortune on gas? This girl.

They've trained me at the service desk at Target. Oh, horror. People. So many fucking people. Keep your goddamn receipt, okay?

I didn't get the promotion that I so clearly deserved. That's fine, I'm going to go back to school next semester so fuck you very much.

I'm kind of seeing a guy. I met him at Target when he fixed my printer. I then served him a weiner and he served me his number. 'Cause I'm hot. Like whoa.

Anyway, we have sex semi-regular. Yay for me.

Haven't spoken to B in over two months. Not since she came up with some lame excuse to ditch me on my Birthday last minute. I spent it alone with a bottle of rum.

I'm friends with Matty again. Which has been pretty nice. He had to send me like, four text messages until I finally caved in and talked to him. Things going well there.

I hate living at my parents, but at least I don't have to worry about too many bills. I'm also paying on my student loans and shit. It's like, a hundred bucks a month but I'd like to eventually make it more.

Well, that's all. Goodnight.

Gimme Sympathy - Metric

I lived it full, I lived it well

Okay, so after ten days, I had to call in. There is no way in hell I can get completely moved out of my apartment AND work tonight. Especially since my mom couldn't even get the truck over here until this evening.

I'll be moving small stuff all day, cleaning, and I have therapy today. I also need to get a bed frame so I'll be able to put things under my bed to store. 'CAuse there's seriously no room for all of my shit at my parents.

Moving fucking sucks. Especially if you're moving somewhere that you don't want to. Blah.

Dream - Priscilla Ahn

say you love me, say you don't - I can make my own mistakes

I'm at the beginningish of working fourteen days in a row. Yeah. Fourteen.

Starting Tuesday September 28th and ending Monday October 11th.

In that time, I have to move out of my apartment, clean the apartment so that I can get my deposit back, get my room at my parents to be liveable, find somewhere to store some of this furniture and the washer and dryer, get contacts, and get two doctors appointments in before my health insurance expires. Blah.

FML.

Before it Breaks - Brandi Carlile

I won't let him in, but I'm a sucker for his charm

Birthdays are stupid. And pointless. And everyone just ends up letting you down anyway.

Fuck birthdays.

I spent my birthday with rum by myself in my room, IMing Mojito and talking about how much I hate my life.

Drinking with friends is a party. Drinking alone is a depressant.

I need to get out of the midwest and actually start making steps to improving my life. The upside to this shitty birthday? At leasy I won't miss anyone when I'm gone.

Trouble is a Friend - Lenka

fuck you, fuck you very, very much

Got canceled on last minute again tonight by the same guy. Whatever.

So it's my birthday in two days. I'm not excited because I've already passed all of the ages that you're supposed to look forward to. Twenty-two is just... pointless. I lose my health insurance. ... Yay.

Going to IHOP in a few hours, then tomorrow I close food avenue and then I'm going to Hacienda followed by a gay bar with B and a couple of lesbians. :)

Fuck You - Lily Allen